Do You Trust Me?

For several months,
nearly every morning,
the Lord greeted me with a simple phrase:

“Do you trust me?”

At first my response was an exasperated, “OF COURSE”!
But, as the days went on…
as each week presented me with a new set of challenges…

I slowly began to realize…
I don’t think I do.
Not really.

Not the way I should,
Not the way I wanted to.

Sure, I trusted Him…
I trusted Him in survival mode.
I trusted Him when nothing else seemed to be working.
I trusted Him as a last ditch effort.

But I didn’t trust Him…
I didn’t trust Him the way he wanted me to.
I didn’t trust Him with passion.
I didn’t trust Him with abandon.
I didn’t trust Him completely.

There’s a trust that comes to you when you love someone.
When you truly know them…
when you understand their character.

You trust that they are looking out for you.
that they see you…
in the good…
in the bad…
and they love you anyway.

You trust that they believe in you.
That they are on your side…
That they are with you until the end.

You trust them to stick up for you.
To fight along side you when things get rough.
That they can be strong in your weaknesses…

So, as I sit and think about this simple phrase…
I realize, He isn’t really asking if I trust Him…

He’s asking if I know Him…

Because, if I truly knew Him…
I couldn’t help but trust Him.

If I really understood who He was…
His goodness…
His mercy…
His heart for me…

Then nothing would ever shake my trust in Him.

Now…
now I understand.
Now I see why He challenges my thinking.

and now…
I can say I trust Him.

Because I know Him…
And to know Him, is to trust Him.

I know how He loves me.
I know His voice…
I know when He speaks to me.
I know His leading.

I know Him…
and I trust Him.

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  1. So good! Now I must ask myself if I trust God the way he wants me too.

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